#NoGoodell

I was going to post this as a Facebook status, but the more I thought about it, the longer my thoughts ran.

So here it is.

I’ve been listening to the recent news reports about Ray Rice, and every day it becomes more clear to me that Roger Goodell needs to step down as Commissioner of the NFL. If you haven’t seen or heard the details, you can read about it here.

This makes me sick. He completely missed the mark on the punishment, and did nothing to help Rice’s fiancee. He protected a star player over a victim. Status shouldn’t matter when it comes to justice, but when big money is involved, it often skews the moral compass of those in power.

Even without the interior perspective of the second video, it was clear from the first video that something violent had happened inside. That alone should have been justification to fire him from the privileged and luxurious life he had been given.

So why fire Roger if he’s just one man in a large organization? Simply put, he made sure that the discipline of players and staff rested solely on his shoulders. All punishments go through him. Period.

He chose the two-game suspension when he could have done much more. This, to me, shows a tremendous disrespect for Janay and every other victim of domestic violence by valuing dollars over dignity.

I’m a big fan of football, but no game will excuse acts of violence. And for that reason, I will not be watching any NFL games this week. Possibly the rest of the season. I’m not going to feed their pockets and reward them for their blatant disregard for human decency.

#NoGoodell

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Hello, world!

It’s been a few weeks since my last post, but for good reason.

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Atlas was born healthy and strong on July 29, 2014. Ever since that day, I’ve been busy with everything that comes with baby-raising: feeding, burping, changing diapers, and giving mama foot rubs. The first couple weeks we’re fun, but then I had to go back to work. I wish I could be home all the time, but the bills must be paid.

Anyway, I’m excited to see what the first couple of years of a kid’s life is like. My wife tells me that there’s a lot of progress and milestones that happen quickly. I keep asking her, “What is he gonna learn to do next?”

So far, he’s starting to see about as far as the TV, which is perfect for introducing him to things like NASCAR and hockey (when the season starts). Unfortunately, my wife keeps trying to brainwash him with other shows like all the Housewives of NY, LA, NJ, etc.

On the bright side, he might turn out to be competitive, yet sensitive.

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Dear Atlas

You’re almost here, and I’m almost crazy with anticipation. As much as I like being patient with most things, I think you’ve made me wait long enough. Grandpa and Grandma are here to see you, but they’re leaving next Friday. They want to see you and play with you before they leave, so you should hurry up and get here.

I’ve heard that babies tend to develop better if they’re in there a little past full term, but you have a pretty good head start.

For one, your mom is incredible! She’s super funny. She’s also the most beautiful woman you’ll ever see. Don’t think that’s all she has, though. She’s really smart, so don’t try to get away with anything. The best thing to do is always tell her the truth. You can’t out-debate her. Believe me, I’ve tried.

And your sister is a genius, too! She’s already reading and doing math way above her level. Get ready, though, because you may have to endure a few tea parties and dress-ups. She has a super big heart, so prepare for lots of love! You have to be careful, though, because that big heart of hers is also very sensitive. Give her lots of love and protect her when we can’t.

Outside the home, we live in a nice neighborhood with lots of kids for you to play with. We even have a race track right next to an airport! It’s a small town, with a little lake right down the road. We’ll take you there for swimming, tennis and the awesome playground!

I know you’re super comfortable and get “womb service” (that’s what your sister calls it), but there’s a lot out here to see and experience. Sure, it gets cold and hot and rainy, but that’s what helps makes this world beautiful! You’re gonna get bumps and bruises, too, but that’s all part of growing up and becoming You.

You haven’t heard “Love” yet, at least not outside the womb, but there’s a lot out here for you. You and Mom have had a long time to bond, so come out and let me have some time with you. I’m a little jealous. I want to add all my love to what Mom has already given you. I already know you’re worth it.

I Love You,
Dad

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One Year Later [Almost]

I’ve definitely fallen short of my goal of writing on here frequently. I believe I said that I wanted to write every week or so. When I signed in, I noticed that it’s been nearly a year! Sorry everyone.

My lack of writing has not come from life being boring. Quite the opposite actually. I’ve had time to write, but always seem to be too tired or focused on something else. My life is still busy, and there doesn’t seem to be a calm moment in my near future, BUT I will try to get back to writing to you.

So, what’s been going on that’s kept me so busy?

Our daughter leaving for her first day of Kindergarten.

Our daughter leaving for her first day of Kindergarten.

Not long after my last post, my daughter started Kindergarten, which officially marked the beginning of her “growing up” years. It was both exciting and stressful. I love watching her grow up, but I don’t know if I’m ready to see her grow up completely. I know there are still 12 years of fun ahead until she’s all grown up. And I look forward to it all. However, I still can’t help but look into the future and worry a little.

Along with that, I tried to start a YouTube channel, write a couple books, I read a few books, we went to a bunch of hockey games, celebrated birthdays, and went to Texas for Christmas.

The biggest news of all, though, happened around November. My wife and I found out we’re expecting! We didn’t think we were able to conceive, so it came as a bit of a shock for both of us. I was a little nervous, since the age gap between our two kids will be almost 7 years. Plus, we had already grown comfortable with our family of 3 just the way it was. Of course none of that makes me any less excited about this incredible turn of events. My wife and I talked about how we are going to have to readjust our lives completely to accommodate an infant. So, for the past several months, the three of us have been focused on preparing for our new little one.

It’s amazing how simple things like looking for a pacifier clip or deciding what shade of paint to use on the nursery walls is so exciting. I never thought I’d have so much fun shopping for outfits. After all, I don’t even like buying jeans for myself, but the thought for buying them for a baby just feels so different. The new baby isn’t even here yet, and the little one is already making my life even more fun and exciting! I can’t wait to see my daughter become a big sister right before my eyes.

Our newest addition!

Our newest addition!

SPOILER ALERT: If you’re curious about what we’re having, let me just say that we’re evening up the odds in our house. It’s gonna be a fair fight now with a little guy on my side. We have decided on a name: Atlas. It’s a strong name with a bit of a double influence. My wife likes the mythological origin of it and I absolutely love space, so a throwback to the Atlas rockets was kinda nice for me. :-P His full name is coming soon, so stay tuned!

I’m almost to work now, and I feel like this is a good place to stop. Plus, my post would be way too long if I recalled everything, so I’ll leave you with just the big things.

Take care. :-)

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Books vs Books

open book

open book (Photo credit: sarah_browning)

So I know I’ve been gone a while. I can’t say I was too busy or preoccupied. I felt like I didn’t have anything particularly interesting to say about my life with ADHD. I felt like I would be cheating you out of the purpose of this blog if I didn’t include some sort of struggle or triumph. But alas, I feel like I can now look back and share with you all the little things that have added up.

First, I read a blog earlier this year about making a reading list of books read. I chose to try it out myself. So far, I’ve read several books, including 3 1/2 of A Song of Ice and Fire books, The Hunger Games trilogy and The Hobbit to name a few. I even proofread a book for an author friend of mine.

Also, I started learning how to code at Codecademy. It’s a great resource for anyone who wants to learn how to read and/or write computer code. It has plenty of lessons and achievements. I completed the JavaScript and HTML/CSS series, but don’t ask me to write your next website. I struggled through a lot of the more complex subjects, which is what makes websites do all the cool stuff. It’s been fun, but I’m taking a break. jQuery has become my enemy.

Finally, let’s address the title of this blog. Since I’ve been reading so much, as I mentioned before, I’ve found that I can imagine and create and play in my mind much better than before. It’s so refreshing to know that I still got it. :P

My wife and I have also been reading to my daughter to get her ready for school next year. We read about 30 children’s books a week. Sometimes more, sometimes less. Some of them are from our childhood. They brought back memories and have made us think, “This book is crazy! Why did they let kids read this!?” more than once.

Although my books and my daughter’s books have little in common, other than they have words and pages, I have come to realize something. To a kid, the pictures in books are wonderful. They bring the words to life and help them understand what’s going on, even if they don’t know all the meanings. But in my books, there are no pictures. They look so boring and monotonous. Yet, with each passing word, a new life begins to form. Whole worlds are created and destroyed. Lives are saved and lost. I’m forced to make the black-on-white monotony become real.

I started to become a standard human, one of those simple letters slowly marching along the pages of life—then I read a book. The letters of my life began to move a little, then dance, then fly! My life began to take off again as I started to imagine once more. That’s what makes novels so amazing. That’s why we have to keep our kids reading, no matter what age they are.

We can’t live without dreaming. We can’t dream without imagining.

Pick up a book and bring your pages to life!

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More Time Spent Means More Time to Spend

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Writing (Photo credit: jjpacres)

Hello strangers. It’s been way too long since I’ve been on here. I hope you haven’t lost hope in me yet.

Since we last talked, I’ve been growing closer to family, more content with my job, and more whole as a person.

I’ve been spending much more time with my family than before, which has many benefits beyond those found by other means (i.e. books, games, pointless internet surfing, etc.). It still baffles me how much more free time can be found by spending more time with someone. I feel better about myself, both physically and mentally. You should definitely try it if you haven’t already.

My job has become more satisfactory for sure. I work with a great group of people and have just enough variety of tasks to keep me interested, but not overwhelmed. Although, I must say that I don’t really appreciate the cold, wet conditions I have to suffer through.

All these little factors have combined and boosted my overall sense of being. I’ve found myself more energetic and much happier than before.

Having all these epiphanies and self-reflective discoveries has helped me to refocus my life on the more important things. Don’t get me wrong, I still play games and watch sports. I just don’t do it nearly as much as I used to. I’ve also found that my growing need to write has been steadily increasing.

My favorite books to read have always been either space- or medieval-themed (most recently the series A Song of Ice and Fire by George R. R. Martin), so naturally, I wanted to write a novel of a similar theme. I had a really good idea for a space sci-fi novel, even going so far as to design a few ships and character profiles; however, I found a flaw that ultimately led to me trashing the dream.

Then I had an actual dream—a dream that took me by surprise and fanned the flame for a very different novel. I never thought I’d ever have any interest in the genre, but it intrigued me. I woke up from the beginning of a political  thriller. And that’s all I’m going to say until I get a little further into the writing.

Sometimes ADHD has its surprises, both good and bad.

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Creative Spin for the Seemingly Ordinary

Notepads

Notepads (Photo credit: Jay Shouldol)

Below is a collection of very short stories I’ve written over the past couple of weeks. All of them originated from something that actually happened. I just added a little fiction to spice up the bland. Here’s how it started:

I was looking out an ordinary window with an ordinary view, when a spark of inspiration hit me. I thought, Why don’t I turn this absolutely boring life event into something interesting.

And so I wrote.

The Building

I look out the window at a building being constructed. I wonder how long it will take for it to be complete. The beautiful pictures of the completed building conflict with the steel skeleton standing in front of me. It’s a constant battle between the present and the future. A battle that will ultimately be won by the simple act of cutting a ribbon.

The Box

I sit in a box. It’s all I have. A box that fits only me. The world enters this box through four windows. I cannot hear or smell the world outside, even though it’s only inches away. I find it intriguing to be able to look and observe this world to the point of intimate familiarity, yet never be able to truly know its real personality and character. A flower has bloomed just outside, but I can never smell or touch it. This box has robbed me.

Monotony

A man sits at a table with a pen and a stamp. He stamps then hesitates, as if unsure of his actions. He speaks to another man before continuing on. I wonder what words were exchanged, what papers he stamps, and the point of all his actions. Another page turned, another stamp applied. Monotony.

Blue

Blue walls, a blue door, blue pants, a blue pen, and a blue notepad. Why is there so much blue? Some of it was my choice, some of it wasn’t. So why is it all here with me at this single point in time? I find it comforting because blue is my favorite color. Maybe that’s why it’s all here now. Perhaps I need the comfort and I subconsciously looked for it. Or maybe it’s just a coincidence. Either way, I like it.

Chicken Jerky

Why haven’t I ever seen chicken jerky? I’ve heard of beef, deer, turkey, and even buffalo jerky. Never chicken, though. Is it too small? Doe it require more effort than it’s worth to make it? For such a popular food source, I’m surprised that I’ve never crossed paths with this elusive form of jerky. Ah, the mysteries of life. On that note, out of all the mysteries to be pondered, why did I choose chicken jerky?

The Power of Perception

Looking down, I see a million stars. I feel infinite and infinitely small at the same time. I can fit all these stars in the small holes we call eyes, yet the distance to the closest one is far too great to comprehend. Should I hold the universe in my hand, or let the vastness crush me? Should I be the king, or the spec of dust on a spec of dust? This is the power of perception.

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