Over the past few weeks, I’ve been casually tracking how often I consume things, whether it be food, media, or hobbies. Since I’m born and raised American, I’m sure it will not surprise anyone that the amount I consume far outweighs how much I create. There have been many talks, articles, and blog posts about this topic, so I won’t go into a big spiel about the pros and cons of each. Basically, it’s more fulfilling to create than it is to consume.
Just a couple days ago, I was talking with my mother-in-law, when she told me about one of her family members that’s extremely competitive. At first, I thought my normal thoughts like, “Yeah, they need to lighten up and just have fun,” and “It’s just a game,” but she helped me gain a new perspective.
She told me that their view is that joining a team or playing a game should mean you are giving your all. If you join a team and only give the minimal amount, you could be filling a spot for someone who would be much more willing to contribute and help the team. That kinda hit me because I definitely haven’t given my all in everything I do, and I know that in some of those areas, I’ve likely cost other people an opportunity.
So, I’ve decided that I need to apply myself more in multiple areas of my life. I need to break through that sudden lack of motivation whenever I sit down to complete a task. I’m starting to realize that life is a very limited time, so I need to start acting like it.
The lyrics “Why do you write like you’re running out of time?” from Hamilton keep repeating in my head.
My goal is to start creating more than I consume. I usually try to take on one specific hobby, but then I get burned out quickly. This time, I’m gonna to step back and just focus on general creation, whether it be a drawing, short stories, or just writing a letter to someone. I just need to start on something. I’ll make a post about my plans and ideas later.
Amidst all these thoughts and revelations, my cousin, Ladonna, was killed the other night when she was hit by a car. There was no one at fault, as far as we know, but it doesn’t change the fact that our family lost an amazing woman who always had a smile and made sure that we did, too.
Rest In Peace Ladonna. 😦