Project(s)

In *my last post, I shared with you that I wanted to try to take on a few smaller projects and/or personal challenges instead of putting all my effort and energy to one. As I’ve stated before, that usually ends up being really exciting for a moment, followed by a sudden disinterest in whatever it was.

What I’m having trouble with now, is deciding what and how to make good on my word. I’ve started a *bullet journal with some graphs to track certain aspects of my life, so I’ll make more for these little goodies. I just keep getting hung up on how to quantify a success.

Let me list my ideas along with what I might classify as a ✔️, so you can see what I mean:

  • Bullet Journal – one entry (daily)
  • Art – one drawing (daily)
  • Writing – one hour (daily)
  • Blog – one post (weekly)
  • Vlog – one video (weekly)
  • Personal Growth Lectures – one series (monthly)
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Consistency is Key

…and my key doesn’t seem to fit.

Once again, I’ve let the blog go unattended for months over a year. I have no excuse. I just lost interest and felt like I had better things to do. I mean, I did, but I could have easily made time to write a few words on here.

So what all have I been up to? I’ll try to go chronologically, but that’s a long way back. Honey, please don’t get mad if I leave something out. It’s late. I’m tired. Love me.

  1. I was transferred to a new location at my work. It was a lateral move, so no loss in pay or position. I didn’t know anyone in my new area, so that was a bit of a social test for me. I can happily report, though, that I’ve now met pretty much everyone and have moved up to a lead position.
  2. A couple months later, my wife and I found out that we were pregnant with our 3rd child. It was a bittersweet moment, as I was super tired when she told me, and my reaction was far less than desirable. I’m not proud. I have since worked very hard to prove to her that my reaction was not true to my feelings. She has forgiven me and said that I’ve succeeded.
  3. I got a Facebook account. My wife and I had been sharing a Facebook account for years. We decided to split our account because it was getting very confusing, and some of her friends wanted to discuss personal things, but weren’t comfortable talking to her with me also able to see what was being said. I always avoided looking at the conversations that she told me to ignore, and to this day, I still don’t know what any of them were about, but I don’t blame her friends for being unsure.
  4. I finally finished reading the Harry Potter series.
  5. Our little Veda was born! She was the smallest baby by far, but she came out in style. I’ll spare you the details, but just know that the nurses hadn’t experienced a birth like Veda’s before. I’ll admit that I was a little nervous about having another baby, since Atlas was so much work for his first 6 months, but Veda has been a fairytale baby. She’s calm, easy-going, happy, and super cute! Her smiles could melt any heart. I’m excited to see her personality develop as she grows, but I don’t want her to grow out of this stage.

Okay, that update was much longer than I anticipated, so I will leave my current events post until another time. I promise it won’t be like my previous disappearance. I’ll post it within the next few days. I’m really excited for it, as I’ve had some revelations and personal growth recently.

Until then, have a great day and hug those you love.

Writing a Book in One Month, and Other Updates

Hello Again,

I have taken upon myself a monumental task.

About a month ago, my daughter said, “I wish someone would do that for me,” in regards to her brother getting a personalized book for his birthday. I thought it was just a bit of sibling jealousy, and it probably was. She’s most likely forgotten about it, but I haven’t. It stung when she said it.

So I’ve decided that I want to write her a book. Most books take many months, if not years, to complete. I like to plan ahead and get all the little details just right, but I don’t really have time to do that, since her birthday is in October. My wife said to just start writing. I don’t think I can be that disorganized, but I’ll definitely have to tone down my perfectionism. I’m not sure how I’m going to accomplish this goal, unless I really buckle down and focus.

Therein lies the problem.

Even now, I’ve been “writing” to you for over an hour. I keep getting distracted by trivial things. Do you have any tips that could help me not only accomplish my goal, but also focus in general?


In other news: I have to be honest. I stopped writing for a dumb reason. I lost my USB Flash drive—or, rather, it was stolen. I left if in the computer at work, and it disappeared by the time I got back. The problem is, I had a nice spreadsheet for all my goals. I lost about four months of data, and with that, my motivation. I could have just picked up from there and continued on, but I didn’t want to. I know, it’s a lame excuse.

I figure I’ll just start again next year and keep better track of my USB. I’ll give you a general overview of my goals and where I stand on them, though.

Primary

  • Grow closer to God (immeasurable) (0%)
  • Have a conversation with my grandma in Spanish. (0%)
  • Write a letter a month to family/friends. (10%)
  • Read at least 15 novels (70k+ words each), or 1,050,000 words total. (125%, including audio books)
  • Publish at least 30 blog posts. (10%)
  • Write at least three chapters of my novel. (0%)

Optional

  • Outline my entire novel. (10%)
  • Record blog posts in audio format. (0%)

Well, that was a humbling experience. Especially the first and second ones. I knew I was doing really well with reading, but I didn’t realize that I’ve done so little on all the others. I know that writing the book for Talon will complete two of the goals, so that will feel good. I still need to write many more blog posts and letters.

Sadly, I don’t know if I’ll get to have that conversation with my grandmother. I just got back from visiting her, and she’s not doing too well. I did make sure to hug her and sit with her as long as possible, but I failed to learn enough Spanish to talk with her.

God is always in the back of my mind. Some might say that that’s better than Him not being there at all, but I personally think that it’s one of the worst places for Him:

So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.” -Revelation 3:16


So, what’s new with you? You haven’t heard from me in a while, and I had a lot to say. I’m anxious to know what’s been going on in your life.

Let Me Know,

Ryan

My Personal Prologue

I’m starting this blog to give people a glimpse into the life of someone ADHD. Some people think it’s a fake disease, and I’ll admit that I was one of them. I always thought it was an excuse to not behave or not get work done. So how did I come to find out that I had this “fake” disease? It all started when I got married.

My wife and I were happy, but we were having some trouble resolving issues. The main problem was that I couldn’t remember what we had just argued about, so we decided to go to a counselor. Skip a few months, and they said they thought I was depressed and I needed to get a psycho-neurological evaluation, which is a big word for “brain test.” My doctor thought it might be a thyroid issue but referred me anyway, so I took the test and surprised everyone. The psychologist said I was a textbook case for adult ADHD, combined type. I was a little skeptical, but then I saw the list of symptoms. Here’s a list of symptoms for a child from WebMD (mine are in bold):

    • difficulty paying attention to details and tendency to make careless mistakes in school or other activities; producing work that is often messy and careless
    • easily distracted by irrelevant stimuli and frequently interrupting ongoing tasks to attend to trivial noises or events that are usually ignored by others
    • inability to sustain attention on tasks or activities
    • difficulty finishing schoolwork or paperwork or performing tasks that require concentration
    • frequent shifts from one uncompleted activity to another
    • procrastination
    • disorganized work habits
    • forgetfulness in daily activities (for example, missing appointments, forgetting to bring lunch)
    • failure to complete tasks such as homework or chores
    • frequent shifts in conversation, not listening to others, not keeping one’s mind on conversations, and not following details or rules of activities in social situations
    • fidgeting, squirming when seated
    • getting up frequently to walk or run around
    • running or climbing excessively when it’s inappropriate (in teens this may appear as restlessness)
    • having difficulty playing quietly or engaging in quiet leisure activities
    • being always on the go
    • often talking excessively
    • impatience
    • difficulty delaying responses
    • blurting out answers before questions have been completed
    • difficulty awaiting one’s turn
    • frequently interrupting or intruding on others to the point of causing problems in social or work settings
    • initiating conversations at inappropriate times

As you can see, I have most of the symptoms. Looking back on my life, I can clearly see that I’ve had this since grade school. The reason it went undetected for so long was further explained to me after the psychologist gave me my diagnosis. I have a very high IQ, which means that I was able to compensate and cover up my symptoms throughout my life. For that reason alone, I can say that if you have a child who is displaying some of the symptoms listed above, yet does well in school, you might want to talk to your doctor about having them tested. The symptoms can intensify over time, so it’s better to try to correct it early.

So here I am: age 24, taking medicine to help combat a disease I once thought was bogus. Life is interesting.